Ask me anything, part 1
I would like to thank you for all your questions and I really hope that my honest answers will be rewarding enough. I'm especially pleased with the fact that some of you were asking for personal - as opposed to sexual - matters. It's nice to be treated as someone, rather than something - even if it would be something very beautiful and arousing.
I did my best to provide comprehensive and detailed answers to your questions, so you can really get to know me better. I really enjoyed this adventure and I am already considering the next edition, so stay tuned!
And now, without further ado - your questions and my answers.
Q: Often in your vids, I see you smell your fingers at multiple times while you're masturbating. What does this smell do to you? What do you like in that?
A: This smell arouses me like no other scent in the world. It’s the fragrance of lust… The top note are the primordial lust, the biological urge for copulation, the cold spark originating in my underbelly; middle notes are the willingness to attract a male and surrender to him, the craving for being taken and used; finally, the base note is a long lasting physical pleasure, building up to a exhausting climax. What I like about it? It’s the harbinger of my pleasure, my own perfume brewed by my body, the nectar of my hidden flower, intense and natural.
Q: How much your scents or the ones of your partners (maybe) affect you?
A: In case you didn’t see it on my videos: the scent of my horny pussy drives me crazy, as simple as that. The scent of a cock can be arousing too, but there is always a blurry line between this primal perfume and a repulsive odor; same happens with the worn stockings. There are other scents which I find pleasant and horny though, but that’s mostly because of some associations. Leather, some perfumes, certain alcohols…
Q: Do you love sex or do you have sex to feel love, or you have to please the loved ones?
A: All of them, actually! I really love sex and enjoy it a lot, while taking care of the enjoyment of my partners. I also have sex to feel love, but this is reserved only for my husband and my lover. And because both of them like my slutty adventures, to please my loved ones I have sex with other men, and while I generally don’t fall in love with them, I’m always seeking for some emotional bond. Unless this is a quick adventure, I’m never looking for a simple shagging - and even in those random "quickies" with strangers (it doesn’t happen often, but sometimes I just had to reciprocate to my chauffeur…) I seek for tension, desire and lust.
Q: Next to your kinky side you must have everyday hobby's or passions. Can you tell something about them?
A: Under the risk of sounding somewhat false and corny - my family is my biggest passion! My k**s may drive me crazy, but I really love them and spending time with them is a sheer joy (unless they are grumpy). As you might have seen in my galleries, I like to work in my garden when the weather arrives - always in gloves, to protect my hands, because I am also honing my nails painting skills. Sometimes you can meet me in the sauna, but I behave well, at least most of the times. I can enjoy a concert of classical music, a good book (recently Naguib Mahfouz and Orhan Pamuk) or a movie - either as entertainment or food for thought. Last, but not least, a nice conversation - and not necessarily about sex or erotica - would always be a pleasure.
With all that being said, thanks to my youngest c***d I learned to appreciate the simplest joy of life - sleep.
Q: When you masturbate and you are on your own, do you think and fantasize about real existing people you meet in everyday life while they have no idea you get off by thinking about them? Who are they?
A: Of course I do! Obviously I also fantasize about some completely anonymous people, but some of the dominant males (like my former boss or one of my high school professors) are present in my perverted dreams. It might take a single sentence or one movement - something that would give me an impulse to think about being subdued by them…
Q: Can you orgasm from just anal?
A: In case my recent videos were not clear about it - yes, I can! Probably because my lover can orgasm almost exclusively from giving anal. Actually, when I want to get his cum in my pussy I have to work very hard, telling him a lot of dirty stories. Sometimes I share my experiences with him, but sometimes I only fantasize, although he seems to hardly see a difference - he usually says that a fantasy is simply a future story, while a story is just a past fantasy.
Q: How many sex partners have you had in your life so far?
A: Just to make it clear, reaching certain number was never my ambition, nor I believe that quantity is more important than quality. Probably because of that I was never trying to properly count my partners and I lost track of the exact number. For sure more than hundred, but usually it was never more than four men at the same time. On few occasions I participated in real gang bangs in Erotic Cinema and - while I have met some interesting people and some great partners - the atmosphere of those events doesn’t really offer many possibilities to create proper relationships. That being said, I recall few men who managed to stand out and didn’t remain anonymous. I always invite them to join me in my visits to EC and I like to call them my retinue - this makes me feel so special!
Q: What it was like the first time you performed oral sex on a male and did you feel then that you were destined to become the highly-charged, lustful lady that you are today?
A: I don’t remember it, but I believe it was very clumsy! It must have been in the first years of the relationship with my husband - we were trying a lot of different things, just to see how they look like. At that time I had absolutely no idea of whom I would become. I can remember that initially I didn't like the taste of sperm and it took some time before I understood that the taste itself is not everything: it’s the act of man’s climax in my mouth, which makes the whole thing special. From that moment I started developing my addiction to the taste of cum and now it’s a sheer pleasure to feel a fresh load shot into my mouth. With one exception: I hate the sperm of tobacco smokers. Really.
Q: You strike me as a very independent and strong woman, yet I see you almost always in a submissive role, never in a dominant role. Have we not see you in such a way or is the submissive role your favorite?
A: Since I remember, my sexuality was always related to submission. My earliest fantasies were focused on being subdued and forced into obedience. Only recently I understood, that by surrendering to a man, I become in charge - because even though I allow him to do whatever he wants, I keep the right to judge him and the way his efforts are aligned with my expectations. Slowly, very slowly I begin to entertain a thought about dominating a man - but not in the typical BDSM way. For me domination is a game, and it can only last if it’s rewarding enough for both sides. It’s easy to whip someone, who is tied or locked; yet to subdue someone and to make that person want to keep that state - that is a challenge! In real life I tend to be strong and independent, but that was not always the case - in fact the more I was indulging in my submissive pleasures, the stronger I was becoming. Sounds like a paradox, but that’s how it worked.
Q: I am a big fan of the lingerie you wear. A lot of video's seem to be in public places. Do you record them spontaneously and are we lucky that at that time you are wearing your very sexy lingerie or do you plan in advance?
A: In general I like to look elegant and sexy, so unless I feel under the weather or I’m in a rush, I tend to wear stockings (or pantyhose, when it’s cold), high heels and a skirt or a dress. There are days when I leave home in some trousers and if my cunt starts to get itchy, I simply take care of it without recording it. Obviously, wearing something sexy makes me feel more attractive, and when I notice that men pay attention to me, my inner slut wakes up and before I notice I feel fire in my pussy, so I have to go to the toilet and please this little devil… Sometimes I put something on, thinking "that would look great on the video", but then my day is so demanding, that I simply don’t have much time to focus on my cunt. In the end it’s a rather spontaneous combination of my mood and the clothing I’m wearing at that moment.
Q: Can you write about the time when you realized that you need more than one man for your demanding sex life?
A: There was never a single moment when I got enlightened that I am a depraved slut, at some point I simply noticed that I like things, which are not necessarily mentioned in the handbook of a proper housewife. Believe me or not, I was a decent woman and still a virgin when I met my husband! After discovering sex with him - and hearing that he had had some experiences with other women before - at first I was afraid that one day I could become curious, which could even push me into looking for an adventure with another man. Being very naive, I shared those doubts with my soon-to-be-husband - and not only he didn’t treat me like a potential whore (which should be avoided), but he understood my concerns. We promised that we would never do anything behind each other’s back - because that would be cheating - but instead we will allow ourselves to broaden our experience. If we only knew…
Q: Have you ever been "caught in the act", so to speak? We've heard the door open a few times and you finish up in a hurry but seemingly without detection? Do you think any of your colleagues know or suspect what you're doing in there? Would you like to get caught?!! Maybe even a little part of you?
A: There is a reason why I make my videos in a toilet, and that reason is that I can lock the door. I have never been caught in the act in the toilet, but I was indeed caught - once, while I was recording my most popular video. This is a separate story which deserves a separate post, so I won’t disclose all the details here.
I don’t think, that any of my colleagues have any clue what am I doing in the toilet - even the one I have sex with (from time to time I like to have a small office adventure). Would I like to get caught? Yes and no. Yes, I would like, but I don’t know any good candidate (maybe except the guy I mentioned). It would have to be the right man - someone, who could even enter and stick his cock straight into my mouth and feed me with his cum, forcing me to keep sucking him until he’d be hard again, eventually bending me over and fucking from behind. But at the same time it would have to be someone, who could keep the secret and appreciate the accidental character of our encounters. There’s a thin line between a passionate fantasy and a blackmail turning your professional life into a misery - and I wouldn’t like to cross that line, thank you very much.
Q: Until when you think you’ll able to do self video or what’ll you be your fantasy in those style of video?
A: Until you would like to watch them, first of all! I’m always surprised with the statistics, which clearly demonstrate that those are the most popular videos of mine. As for my fantasy… The formula of these videos is relatively simple; I can use a plug or a dildo, or any other similar toy, but I can hardly think of anything ground-breaking. I have a lot of fantasies, but it all boils down to what could be done (how about me being abused by multiple strangers in the men’s toilet?) and what could be shown (certainly not my face!).
Q: I always wondered how your pussy smell, how much of discharge/grool you have and how often you wink and pulse your pussy in/after a full time day of work?
A: Unless there’s something wrong with it, or it is extremely dirty or menstruating, my pussy smells absolutely lovely. Depending on the day and my mood it can be slightly wet or completely soaked. When it comes to stimulating it, at work I don’t squeeze my thighs under the table - whenever my appetite becomes unbearable I just go to the toilet and give my little pussy what she needs and deserves (unless I am so horny that I have to use my emergency office cock). After work it’s much easier, I only have to find time…
Q: Do you usually squeeze your cunt around a dick when you have sex?
A: It really depends, but in short: if I am aware enough (because sometimes an intense fucking reduces me to the a****l level) and I want to bring my partner to climax, I do it. I can also squeeze my ass around a dick and I often do it, because men would make the most rewarding (and inhuman) noises upon exploding in my tight hole…
Q: Will you continue making secret amazing videos after being overwhelmed from being a busy mommy?
A: I really hope so! Luckily the little one is growing and soon I should have more time. Even though my secret videos are made in the office, where I’m not a busy mommy per se, the more time I have for myself (and for sleeping), the better is my mood and the bigger is the willingness to do something nasty.
I did my best to provide comprehensive and detailed answers to your questions, so you can really get to know me better. I really enjoyed this adventure and I am already considering the next edition, so stay tuned!
And now, without further ado - your questions and my answers.
Q: Often in your vids, I see you smell your fingers at multiple times while you're masturbating. What does this smell do to you? What do you like in that?
A: This smell arouses me like no other scent in the world. It’s the fragrance of lust… The top note are the primordial lust, the biological urge for copulation, the cold spark originating in my underbelly; middle notes are the willingness to attract a male and surrender to him, the craving for being taken and used; finally, the base note is a long lasting physical pleasure, building up to a exhausting climax. What I like about it? It’s the harbinger of my pleasure, my own perfume brewed by my body, the nectar of my hidden flower, intense and natural.
Q: How much your scents or the ones of your partners (maybe) affect you?
A: In case you didn’t see it on my videos: the scent of my horny pussy drives me crazy, as simple as that. The scent of a cock can be arousing too, but there is always a blurry line between this primal perfume and a repulsive odor; same happens with the worn stockings. There are other scents which I find pleasant and horny though, but that’s mostly because of some associations. Leather, some perfumes, certain alcohols…
Q: Do you love sex or do you have sex to feel love, or you have to please the loved ones?
A: All of them, actually! I really love sex and enjoy it a lot, while taking care of the enjoyment of my partners. I also have sex to feel love, but this is reserved only for my husband and my lover. And because both of them like my slutty adventures, to please my loved ones I have sex with other men, and while I generally don’t fall in love with them, I’m always seeking for some emotional bond. Unless this is a quick adventure, I’m never looking for a simple shagging - and even in those random "quickies" with strangers (it doesn’t happen often, but sometimes I just had to reciprocate to my chauffeur…) I seek for tension, desire and lust.
Q: Next to your kinky side you must have everyday hobby's or passions. Can you tell something about them?
A: Under the risk of sounding somewhat false and corny - my family is my biggest passion! My k**s may drive me crazy, but I really love them and spending time with them is a sheer joy (unless they are grumpy). As you might have seen in my galleries, I like to work in my garden when the weather arrives - always in gloves, to protect my hands, because I am also honing my nails painting skills. Sometimes you can meet me in the sauna, but I behave well, at least most of the times. I can enjoy a concert of classical music, a good book (recently Naguib Mahfouz and Orhan Pamuk) or a movie - either as entertainment or food for thought. Last, but not least, a nice conversation - and not necessarily about sex or erotica - would always be a pleasure.
With all that being said, thanks to my youngest c***d I learned to appreciate the simplest joy of life - sleep.
Q: When you masturbate and you are on your own, do you think and fantasize about real existing people you meet in everyday life while they have no idea you get off by thinking about them? Who are they?
A: Of course I do! Obviously I also fantasize about some completely anonymous people, but some of the dominant males (like my former boss or one of my high school professors) are present in my perverted dreams. It might take a single sentence or one movement - something that would give me an impulse to think about being subdued by them…
Q: Can you orgasm from just anal?
A: In case my recent videos were not clear about it - yes, I can! Probably because my lover can orgasm almost exclusively from giving anal. Actually, when I want to get his cum in my pussy I have to work very hard, telling him a lot of dirty stories. Sometimes I share my experiences with him, but sometimes I only fantasize, although he seems to hardly see a difference - he usually says that a fantasy is simply a future story, while a story is just a past fantasy.
Q: How many sex partners have you had in your life so far?
A: Just to make it clear, reaching certain number was never my ambition, nor I believe that quantity is more important than quality. Probably because of that I was never trying to properly count my partners and I lost track of the exact number. For sure more than hundred, but usually it was never more than four men at the same time. On few occasions I participated in real gang bangs in Erotic Cinema and - while I have met some interesting people and some great partners - the atmosphere of those events doesn’t really offer many possibilities to create proper relationships. That being said, I recall few men who managed to stand out and didn’t remain anonymous. I always invite them to join me in my visits to EC and I like to call them my retinue - this makes me feel so special!
Q: What it was like the first time you performed oral sex on a male and did you feel then that you were destined to become the highly-charged, lustful lady that you are today?
A: I don’t remember it, but I believe it was very clumsy! It must have been in the first years of the relationship with my husband - we were trying a lot of different things, just to see how they look like. At that time I had absolutely no idea of whom I would become. I can remember that initially I didn't like the taste of sperm and it took some time before I understood that the taste itself is not everything: it’s the act of man’s climax in my mouth, which makes the whole thing special. From that moment I started developing my addiction to the taste of cum and now it’s a sheer pleasure to feel a fresh load shot into my mouth. With one exception: I hate the sperm of tobacco smokers. Really.
Q: You strike me as a very independent and strong woman, yet I see you almost always in a submissive role, never in a dominant role. Have we not see you in such a way or is the submissive role your favorite?
A: Since I remember, my sexuality was always related to submission. My earliest fantasies were focused on being subdued and forced into obedience. Only recently I understood, that by surrendering to a man, I become in charge - because even though I allow him to do whatever he wants, I keep the right to judge him and the way his efforts are aligned with my expectations. Slowly, very slowly I begin to entertain a thought about dominating a man - but not in the typical BDSM way. For me domination is a game, and it can only last if it’s rewarding enough for both sides. It’s easy to whip someone, who is tied or locked; yet to subdue someone and to make that person want to keep that state - that is a challenge! In real life I tend to be strong and independent, but that was not always the case - in fact the more I was indulging in my submissive pleasures, the stronger I was becoming. Sounds like a paradox, but that’s how it worked.
Q: I am a big fan of the lingerie you wear. A lot of video's seem to be in public places. Do you record them spontaneously and are we lucky that at that time you are wearing your very sexy lingerie or do you plan in advance?
A: In general I like to look elegant and sexy, so unless I feel under the weather or I’m in a rush, I tend to wear stockings (or pantyhose, when it’s cold), high heels and a skirt or a dress. There are days when I leave home in some trousers and if my cunt starts to get itchy, I simply take care of it without recording it. Obviously, wearing something sexy makes me feel more attractive, and when I notice that men pay attention to me, my inner slut wakes up and before I notice I feel fire in my pussy, so I have to go to the toilet and please this little devil… Sometimes I put something on, thinking "that would look great on the video", but then my day is so demanding, that I simply don’t have much time to focus on my cunt. In the end it’s a rather spontaneous combination of my mood and the clothing I’m wearing at that moment.
Q: Can you write about the time when you realized that you need more than one man for your demanding sex life?
A: There was never a single moment when I got enlightened that I am a depraved slut, at some point I simply noticed that I like things, which are not necessarily mentioned in the handbook of a proper housewife. Believe me or not, I was a decent woman and still a virgin when I met my husband! After discovering sex with him - and hearing that he had had some experiences with other women before - at first I was afraid that one day I could become curious, which could even push me into looking for an adventure with another man. Being very naive, I shared those doubts with my soon-to-be-husband - and not only he didn’t treat me like a potential whore (which should be avoided), but he understood my concerns. We promised that we would never do anything behind each other’s back - because that would be cheating - but instead we will allow ourselves to broaden our experience. If we only knew…
Q: Have you ever been "caught in the act", so to speak? We've heard the door open a few times and you finish up in a hurry but seemingly without detection? Do you think any of your colleagues know or suspect what you're doing in there? Would you like to get caught?!! Maybe even a little part of you?
A: There is a reason why I make my videos in a toilet, and that reason is that I can lock the door. I have never been caught in the act in the toilet, but I was indeed caught - once, while I was recording my most popular video. This is a separate story which deserves a separate post, so I won’t disclose all the details here.
I don’t think, that any of my colleagues have any clue what am I doing in the toilet - even the one I have sex with (from time to time I like to have a small office adventure). Would I like to get caught? Yes and no. Yes, I would like, but I don’t know any good candidate (maybe except the guy I mentioned). It would have to be the right man - someone, who could even enter and stick his cock straight into my mouth and feed me with his cum, forcing me to keep sucking him until he’d be hard again, eventually bending me over and fucking from behind. But at the same time it would have to be someone, who could keep the secret and appreciate the accidental character of our encounters. There’s a thin line between a passionate fantasy and a blackmail turning your professional life into a misery - and I wouldn’t like to cross that line, thank you very much.
Q: Until when you think you’ll able to do self video or what’ll you be your fantasy in those style of video?
A: Until you would like to watch them, first of all! I’m always surprised with the statistics, which clearly demonstrate that those are the most popular videos of mine. As for my fantasy… The formula of these videos is relatively simple; I can use a plug or a dildo, or any other similar toy, but I can hardly think of anything ground-breaking. I have a lot of fantasies, but it all boils down to what could be done (how about me being abused by multiple strangers in the men’s toilet?) and what could be shown (certainly not my face!).
Q: I always wondered how your pussy smell, how much of discharge/grool you have and how often you wink and pulse your pussy in/after a full time day of work?
A: Unless there’s something wrong with it, or it is extremely dirty or menstruating, my pussy smells absolutely lovely. Depending on the day and my mood it can be slightly wet or completely soaked. When it comes to stimulating it, at work I don’t squeeze my thighs under the table - whenever my appetite becomes unbearable I just go to the toilet and give my little pussy what she needs and deserves (unless I am so horny that I have to use my emergency office cock). After work it’s much easier, I only have to find time…
Q: Do you usually squeeze your cunt around a dick when you have sex?
A: It really depends, but in short: if I am aware enough (because sometimes an intense fucking reduces me to the a****l level) and I want to bring my partner to climax, I do it. I can also squeeze my ass around a dick and I often do it, because men would make the most rewarding (and inhuman) noises upon exploding in my tight hole…
Q: Will you continue making secret amazing videos after being overwhelmed from being a busy mommy?
A: I really hope so! Luckily the little one is growing and soon I should have more time. Even though my secret videos are made in the office, where I’m not a busy mommy per se, the more time I have for myself (and for sleeping), the better is my mood and the bigger is the willingness to do something nasty.
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