Being Beta

I guess I’ve always been a beta male. Two sexually failed marriages later, I know it now. I dated girls in school but never lived up to the hard fucking scenes they wanted. It was Alpha males they wanted. I’d end up going home alone, and masturbating all night long. Masturbation has always been my default sexual pleasure. It developed into an obsession that only became deeper with time. Girlfriends, married, career, family didn’t stop me. I did it and did it every minute I could get alone. That’s a beta male hallmark. Infrequent or even no sex with wife is another. They all want Alpha males and we can’t perform that way. Driving us even deeper into masturbation. Then, there’s the porn. Porn is a beta male’s best friend. He craves it, lives it, wants it, masturbates to it constantly. Unlike real females, porn is always there, never demanding, sex and more sex as long as you want it. And it veers everywhere, straight, cuckold, bisexual, trans, gay, back to straight..on and on. Marriages become friendships, tolerable even enjoyable, but sexually, it’s porn-masturbation. We simply love it so much. Beta males are hypersexual. We crave sex so much and have no real sex outlet. We can’t perform with women and we fear gay sex. This builds up the porn-masturbation syndrome ever higher. Everything becomes sexual to us. It’s all we think about. Then, we start finding others, other betas like us. It takes things to an even higher level! We find commonality. We connect, chat, share. Usually, we’re married. We know how it is. It’s not gay, no, it’s far, far more open and erotic than that! Thoughts?